Day 422 - August 11 - Continued Pain
Just a quick update to ask for continued prayer. Connor is still experiencing nearly continuous pain in his shoulder. The doctor had suspected earlier that he may have torn his rotator cuffs in his initial accident, and we did a round of X-rays a couple of weeks ago which confirmed nothing. We're now pursuing an MRI, but that will involve special equipment due to his ventilator and takes some time to set up. So it may be some time before that can take place, and we need to get the pain under control somehow if we can.
On the upside, it's his left shoulder that's hurting. Everything that he's gotten back so far - the finger movements, toe movements, sweating, etc. - has started first on the left side. While I'm not enthusiastic about pain, I'd be pleased if this is a sign of returning feeling. Please be praying for that as well.
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posted by Eric Williamson @ 4:14 PM
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Bless your hearts! I feel your brokenness and discouragement. My mom has suffered greatly since having tongue cancer in Jan of 2007 and I have begged and pleaded for God's healing. But it seemed as though my prayers were banned from Heaven's doors. Silence leaves so much room for doubt.
In this season of mom's sickness there have been many ups and downs. And the whole keeping the faith momentum was dwindling quick. My mom has asked me many times, why this is happening to her? And that she didn't know how much more she could take. Those are hard questions to answer.
For my mom is a wonderful mom, grandmother, sister, cousin, deserving none of the suffering she is experiencing. But I told her that God has met me in low places of my life and moved in ways that were very real to me. They were experiences that were so intense that there is no one who can tell me that God doesn't exist or isn't real.
And as Job put it so well...though the enemy slays me, yet will I trust Him. I started speaking out loud in my prayers all that God has done and I was reminded of how faithful He has been in both good and bad days. And I told momma, that I couldn't answer but could only attest that my God whom I have trusted in the best of days, is the same God on the days that I can't lift my eyes, heart, or mouth in prayer. That is when the beautiful intercessory prayer comes from above and from other believer's who are willing to hold up their arms in prayer on our behalf.
I know how you are hurting and I know how you would give anything for His healing and restoration at this moment. Just know that God is there, His perfect plan is not always our plan, He is faithful, and He loves you all dearly.
Totally broken one evening last year I went by my bedside on my knees crying, ranting, and begging for mercy for her when I clearly heard the Lord speak strength to my heart. He said...fear not, I am with you. You will rise up on eagles wings, you will run and not grow weary, you can walk and will not faint. I stopped my sobbing and just said, Lord, I can't do anymore than what I am doing, I am so tired. And that's when He reminded me that His strength is what will sustain me.
I know that may mean nothing in your circumstances, but to me in that moment, it was all I had to hold on to. He didn't answer my whys, but He met me at my point of need.
Now, today my mom is lying in a bed at the Rehab hospital. Totally exhausted, suffering from excrutiating pain, and the doctors are talking about the options she has at her age as to whether to continue treatment of some sort, or to stop all treatment and let things happen naturally. My heart is absolutely breaking and we are having to discuss things that I am finding nearly impossible to do. And yes, I am questioning why? But I stand in complete need of His sustaining grace and know and trust that He must and does have far greater plans than I could ever imagine for her life and ours. He is not a God of happenstance, He has all of it wrapped tightly in His grip. And though I don't understand it all, yet will I trust Him.
Like I've told my kids over this past few weeks, if I praise the Lord for all the good things in our lives, I praise Him for the bad too. It is hard, but if I have learned nothing in this past 3 years I know I have learned and am learning in the Sovereignty of God.
How I wish God would intervene and heal Connor at this very moment. I along with so many others are praying continually for you and your precious family. And we all know that the doubts you have are the doubts we all have experienced at some point in our lives. Just know you are not alone, intercessory prayer is an awesome blessing in this sin sick suffering world we call life, and we have got your backs. You vent, you yell, scream, kick, and cry...do what you have to do to get through this moment, and we pray. And when the Lifter of our Heads, lifts yours and kisses your tears away, we will rejoice with you at His awesomeness.
I love you Eric and family, although I've never met Cheri and the kids, and haven't seen you in so long, we almost need to be reintroduced. We are one in the bond of love!
Love,
Martha in Fl.
Part of a song I have been singing over and over in my head over this past few weeks...
I've been through enough to know, that He'll be enough for me.
He's come through too many times, that puts my mind at east, for good.
Now,I'll stake my very life, He's gonna take care of me.
I've been through enough to know, that He'll be enough for me.
HAD TO BREAK THE POST IN TWO MESSAGES, TOO WORDY I GUESS
That was a beautiful post, Martha. Penned by someone who has obviously been in the trenches and is there again, your words have a lot of power.
Eric, I hope that the pain Connor is experiencing is part of a great awakening of his body. God is a breath away, going through this with all of you. Lean on Him fully, knowing that He hears the desperate cries of your heart and is working His greatest good for all of you. We are honored to share the load with you...As the song says, "He ain't heavy; he's my brother."
I am praying!
Thank you for sharing the feelings of your heart, Martha! I know that God's loving care is all that gets us through such times in our lives. Yes, we know they make us stronger in the long run but it's sure hard at the time but praise God for other brothers and sisters who hold us up with their love and prayers.
My continued love and prayers to all who carry a special burden of one kind or another--you have helped me grow in my prayer life and in my walk with the Lord.
Dear Williamson Family,
We think about your family and pray for you so often.. we hear the sadness and just complete weariness of your current situation in your posts. We will continue to pray and carry your burden to the cross for you during this difficult time.
Sandi
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